I Should Be Happier Now

Thank you so much for making it possible for me to see my daughter.  You're the most wonderful man in the world.  I love you very much and I'm so sorry...  I'm sorry that I'm falling back down into depression.  I know I should be happier now - I got to see her in real life and hug and kiss her!  =D  And I absolutely AM happy for all of that.....  But I'm a mess, I know.  I don't want to talk about it.  I don't even want to write about it.  I just want to cry and I want you to ignore it.  There's nothing we can do, she's gone forever.  My life would have been so much more beautiful with Lacey in it.