Rollercoaster

Yesterday was shitty because I had to skip two doses of Lithium.  I cried.  A lot.  I haven't seen my daughter all week.  He's taking her away more and more each day.  I hate myself for loving him.  I wish I could stop.  I should have run away with her.  But I am not like him and I don't want to hurt my kids like he does.  He said he'll let her call today buy the phone isn't ringing.  I can't even think about him right now, it's too early in the day to be getting so angry.